Re: For Ski Head
kind of going through the same thing. i remeber feeling really dirty and guilty, even though it wasnt my fault. those were the feelings that brought back most of the memories. they were deep feelings of just being grossed out, where i felt that no expression of any kind could explain how much pain i felt.
it took a long time for me to really deal with those feelings because they would come back at bad times, before a date, a job interview, when i was trying to make myself look nice. i found it helped me to find someone who was safe and not ignore it the feelings, almost on purpose bring them to memory. just about the most terrifying expirience ever (other than deciding to go to counceling, i knew it was family related)