Re: New Girl
I can relate to what you are feeling.
At age 16 I was in an abusive relationship that was mental, physical, sexually, emotional, verbal , all of it. After that ended I was in numerous situations by friends that I was sexually assaulted (but not raped) and sexually harrassed, i've had close calls as well.
I am now 24.
It will not go away, unless you've dealt with the problem, it will continue to be something that will bother you. IT took me 8 years to finally say enough is enough, I'm not going to be stuck in the past, I am not going to live with the fear, the nightmares, the body memories and flashbacks, I'm tired of being triggered all the time, and scared and I never know why. I'm tired of not completely remembering all that happened. But the more you try and remember the further you actually push it back. No once can deal with assault on their own, it will always show it's ugly face when you think it's behind you. After 8 years of therapy, not only dealing with abuse issues and ptsd, but GAD and clincal depression to boot. I am still in therapy as well, seeing the same psychiatrist after all this time. I can now say that I LIVE WITH THE REGRET that it happened, at least then you can move on.
Take care of yourself, seek help if it's something you feel you need to do in order to heal and to trust again.