Desparately in need of answers
I am fairly young but show symptoms of sexual abuse. I don't have any actualy memories or flashbacks but certain feelings that sometimes consume me, and I remember fears of being alone with certain ppl--more feeling uncomfortable than fear. I wanna try to recover memories but I don't want somebody planting ideas in my head. For some reason a part of me wants to believe this happened???
I've struggled with depression and self injury and suicidal thoughts, as well as promiscuity, fears of intamacy, using sex to feel close to someone.
any advice is appreciated,