Well this is kinda difficult for me to ask, cos I have read some of your threads and know you have all suffered very much. But I am wondering if some of the stuff I experience could possibly be due to PTSD.
Basically I have repetitive nightmares, as in it has gotten to the point where I will literally allow myself to only sleep two or three hours a night in the hope of not having the quality of sleep that will produce nightmares. One of the nightmares is definitely about something that happened to me ten years ago, as a teenager. I was raped. But its the other one which disturbs me more because it feels like I am remembering being so scared of something but I am not sure what. And then there is the fact that I have like a 'missing year' around the age of 7, its just ...not there. Like I know some if the stuff I did at that age, but only because I have been told this or that happened, in family conversations.
I am in therapy anyway for my anorexia - which may or may not have something to do with this. But I am getting to the point where the nightmares - well they feel like they are killing me. (melodramatic I know) Its just that I cannot allow myself to sleep, and go to extreme lengths to prevent myself sleeping. I have been feeling very low at some points recently and I am sick and tired of being so fatigued.
So I guess what I am asking is this...do you think it is PTSD and if so how do I bring the subject up with my therapist?
Thanks very much for taking time to read this.
I wish you all success in getting through your PTSD and laying your demons to rest.