No one should have not endure what you did. I hope at this point you are in a safe
situation if not, call the crisis line listed in the blue pages of your phone book. I
also encourage you to talk with your school counselor. You dont have to give
names, just the basic info so they can guide you in the right direction for help.
I know how it feels to have the very people we thought were trustworthy turn out to be the biggest offenders.
You are important, worthy and deserved to be Loved. Not only are you are a Survivor, but you have a strong spirit, you can beat this!!! Look at what you endured and you still held onto Love, kindness and compassion, which was evident when you felt Love for a child created thru rape.
I also was abuse as a child, then drugged and gang raped when I was 15 yr old. That was 33 yrs ago and Ive never understood why things like that happen. I can tell you this, for years I thought it was my fault, now I know it wasnt, I didnt deserve to be treated like that anymore then you did. Im a survivor because they may have hurt me but they didnt destroy my Spirit of Love, kindness, compassion, caring and forgiveness (that one took me a long..... time). Quite often offenders were once victims themselves, I've often wondered if they just werent strong enough to survive and lost their spirit of Love etc...
Im sure you've heard the saying "time heals all wounds" I read a new version that taught me a new meaning of forgiveness. "It is not time that heals all wounds but LOVE" Love yourself and show them they did not defeat you, but that You Are A Survivor!!!!
Thanks for being brave enough to post your story, again it shows your strength. When I replied to you it helped me to learned something new about myself. ((((Hugs)))))
Last edited by kiehn; 01-17-2005 at 02:59 AM.