It's been 8 months since my experience and I still deal with these feelings. I'm doing a lot better but throughout the week, I can feel myself getting worse and worse until I breakdown. The worst part is the irritability and rage I have inside of me. I don't know why i'm so mad at life but the littlest things will set me off. I don't have the 'flashbacks' anymore...just the feelings I had when I was going through the ordeal. It's a very dark and depressing place and it's getting harder to come out of it each time it happens. I almost feel blinded and out of control when I get these....attacks. it scares me to think of what i'm capable of doing. The worst part about this is that I don't know what triggers these feelings. I can be fine all day and then my mood will change for the worst. I generally feel very depressed and it's hard to deal with at times. Just when I think I don't have to worry about it anymore, it hits ten times harder. I've tried just about every remedy there is. I've seen 4 therapists and have been on 3 ssri's....all of which made me worse. I feel very discouraged with life. I don't know if this even has to do with ptsd because I thought I was over it.
Sounds like you're going thru mood swings and you might possibily be bipolar.
Try taking a online Bipolar test and take the results to your doctor. High irritability
an anger for no reason can be a symptom of Bipolar which can be controlled with the
right mood stabilizer. You might want to go check out the Bipolar board and
read thru some of the posts. Good Luck, K
I don't think it's bipolar. I would have figured I would have been screened for it when i went to all those therapists. I was diagnosed with having Generalized Anxiety and depression. These severe changes in mood only occur when things trigger me...i just can't figure out what they are. I never used to be this way. I don't really know what's going on with myself anymore.