Is this PTSD. What to do?
Hi all, I'm new on this board. I have always been the responsible one in my family. I have addisons disease (no biggie) BUT I have had a history of bad things happening to me. (Dad being made redundant, both parents with cancer, sister nearly dying from appendicitis etc.) I have always felt that I should be the strong one in the family. I have taken everything from everyone else, and now I feel odd. I was put in hospital with pneumonia and the lady next to me died from it. That gave me my first panic attack. Since then I have wound myself into such a state (fear of dying) etc. Now I either physically feel so sore that I can hardly breathe or I feel numb with a dull fog in my head. I want to feel like my old self. I have been put on Zyprexa to "balance out the chemicals in the brain" but i feel so bad that I'm SURE I can't get better. I want to get better. But what do I do. I'm seeing a therapist, but he doesn't help me with the overstimulted muscles and soreness. (REALLY BAD PAIN - Like, IF I DON"T THINK ABOUT BREATHING I WONT>) Has anyone ever felt like this or had Zyprexa before? DO I have PTSD