Join Date: Jul 2005
Location: Dubai, United Arab Emirates
Anxiety or pstd?
About two months ago, i was in a singing lesson and hada panic
attack. As i am allergic to Cats, i assumed that my teachers cats had
given me an asthma attack and went to see my doctor, who quickly said
it might be anxiety but as i couldn't pinpoint a cause, and for safety
she gave me a steroid inhaler (fluxotide) and Ventolin, and referred
me to an allergist. The allergist confirmed that i have asthma, but as
the tightness i felt was in my upper throat he suggest anything but
nasal steroid (its still swollen).
Then in the last month, i have felt constantly wired, unable to calm
down and constantly tight in the throat. I had a sinus infection and
as that didn't make me feel ill, i didn't go to the doctor until i had
gotten the flu aswell. I was prescribed Antibiotics, that i had an
allergic reaction to at six months old (and have since taken with no
problem), but within 5 minutes of taking them i felt faint and tight.
Since then, taking anything makes my anxious- especially in the
evening. Any kind of sedative- the feeling of losing control- my heart
is all over the place and my breathing is terrible.
The panic attacks defineatly come on whenever i sing or hum, i get
tight in the throat, sticky and feel i have to cough to open the
airways and get very panicked. That defineatly triggers panic,
although it also happens frequently for reasons i can't pick up. I
don't have that 'fear' feeling so much, because i understand what is
happening- i do get scared every now and again, but it goes quickly
because i know what is happening.
When i saw another dr, he immediately said CBT and said i should
continue to use the puffers and if it isn't making a difference, i
should consider CBT.
Then in the last couple of days, i have been thinking back, to
remembered that about three years ago i started to have panic attacks,
which went away- i didn't know what they were. And about 18 months
ago, i was constantly wound up. Couldn't sleep, chest pain, breathing.
I went to see a doctor and told her how wound up i had been and that i
had a bout of serous depression (i cried in bed for two weeks) six
months prior and had never felt the same i was prescibed effexor. I
lasted two days, it knocked me out and sped me up-i was all over the
I then went to see natropath, who used a quantum thing and told me to
eat more red meat and gave a homeopathic mouth spray (Trauma post
trauma). I hadn't felt so light in years.. When i ran out of the mouth
spray and returned home (i had been studying) i went nuts, i couldn't
sleep because i was sure i was going to have a heart attack. This
stopped only when i started a new job. That was four months ago. Two
months of happiness, then...
I have tried to use the month spray again, with no improvement.
I think i have GAD, because although i get panic attacks in waves that
get really bad, i just feel constantly wound up. And its been going on
for years. Also, i read that GAD sufferers don't necessary fear any
social situations, i more fear being alone when i choke. Then a friend studying said it might be pstd because i have problems concentrating and problems sleeping and am overcareful. I also cannot drink alcohol anymore, because i hate the sensation of losing control of myself..
I would like to try acupuncture, but i also think i really need to see
a therapist, to get to bottom of all this, its been going on forever
and i just want to get back to normal. I had a great childhood and my
mother said i was very outgoing until i was seven, and experienced
sexual abuse from a stranger, and changed very quickly. I saw a
psychologist then too. De-stress medication/ anti-histamines, anything
really are making me anxious, i think i am allergic to everything and
In the last week i have started to experience numbness, and this weird
sensation in my mouth- hard to explain. Like i have lost control of my
head, it feels heavy and numb, like i won't be able to swallow
(difficult anyway because of the stress). I am very phobic- especially
to needles, and being left alone in my house..
I sound like a nut- i just read that over. If anyone can offer any
advice i would just love it if someone could offer some help. I read a
book about anxiety and instantly felt i could control it, although
that didn't last for long. And now pstd seems to fit.. i just don't know..