I'm a 22 y/o female.
I am not even sure I should be posting here, because everything I have read or heard about developing PTSD does not apply to me, necissarily... but I feel I have the symptoms. I have been thinking for about 6 months now that I am merely depressed, but it never explained certain things, mainly my feelings of detatchment and emotional numbness... Also, it all developed after a certain incident which I have been trying to forget...
I took LSD about 6 months ago, and I had a terrible time, it was a bad trip. I didn't have hallucinations or anything like that, but I thought that I was going to lose my mind, and slip into nothing. When I told my friends they told me "Oh, well that happens with drugs like this. It's like you're going to die. But don't worry." So then I thought I was going to die, or at least lose my mind.
After the ordeal ended, no more than 2 or 3 days after, I started taking birth control pills which made me horribly depressed. I am off the pills now, but I feel like they may have exacerbated my bad trip, and worsened it...
That said, I now get antsy around any drugs what so ever, and I feel emotionally dead, I often feel hopeless or like I could just die or lose my mind any time. I also get bad nightmares (though they have lessened just abit recently).
I really don't know what to do about this, particularly since the cause of it is so obviously my fault.
I feel like I have ruined my whole life over one stupid little thing... Does it sound like i have PTSD? If so, is there anything I can do? I really want my life back, I feel like it is detroying my relationship with my BF.