mohouse

I dont know anything about the risperidone, but I am in the same boat as you. Lately my PTSD has been worse. I can not control myself sometimes. I have tried seeing a shrink and have been on zoloft, wellbuturin, and zanax. Zoloft really made me go nuts big time. I went crazy on that stuff. I went into a state of askastatia and had to take zanax to calm down. Wellbuturin made me into a socio path (not literally) but close. Zanax is great short term but when you come off the stuff your left screwed because your body no longer has this magic pill. So your left more anctious and stressed than before.

Counseling didnt help me a bit. I have seen several Pshychiatrists and I found no releif. It seems the only peace I have been able to find is when I am single. I can not seem to have peace with another person. Life just seems to be so dark since some time after my experience in Afghanistan. since than I have not been able to be together with someone. I am stressed out all the time. I need answers to why I am so dam screwed up in the head. I really need help too because since the war my relationships with people in general have been very limited. My work is stressing me out like crazy. i have a very demanding boss. I work some of my weekends away and I cant handle myself like I used to.

I feel like a walking time bomb. Meds dont work for me. The only one that does is Zanax, but it is a temporary fix. I want something permanent. If there was a pill that worked and I could take for the rest of my life and did not need to up my dosage all the time, I would take it. Does anyone have any advice?

I really am feeling quite crazy sometimes. I dont know how to handle myself and am afraid for myself and others around me. Is there anyone out there who has PTSD and found peace. I go from 0-100mph at the drop of a hat and the frequency of it is increasing more and more. I feel like this cycle will never end. I feel like I am doomed to die a sad ending. I feel like it is inevitable that I am going to have one of those tragic endings that you hear about on TV. I dont want to die but sometimes everthing is just to overwelming. In my current state of mind, I am not suicidal but when the incredible hulk comes out I sware if I had a gun I'd shoot my self in the head.

I am really interested in hearing someone else who has gone through what I have and stoped the 0-100mph syndrome.

thank you