Re: I believe I have ptsd what should I do?
It's so tragic that you had to go through what you did both in Russia and here in the US. Some ideas for counselors: consider a social worker who has multi-cultural experience. I don't know where you live, but if you are near a large city with a university, they often have social work degrees and also graduate students in psychology who are able to help. Many of them are really good and can relate to you. You might find one who is Russian and can sympathize with your plight.
I understand what you are going through because I am working through a similar situation. Most of your friends and colleagues don't really understand what you go through, because they have not been exposed to the same situations. On the other hand, it might be helpful to get advice on how you might protect yourself in the future and draw clear boundaries.
Best wishes and God bless --