Re: New Here - Need Advice
I am new here also, and I agree with what you are going through as normal for what you have experienced. Post-traumatic Stress Disorder does involve hyper-vigilance, and it is literally a stressor from past traumas, and you have rightfully been traumatized by what has happened. To not be traumatized by such and event would indicate even more severe problems. In my opinion, your sensibilities have been attacked and you are having a normal defensive reaction. Whether or not it is long term PTSD has yet to be revealed.
I was a combat medic, at the age of 19, in the Vietnam war. Forty years later I still have reactions to what I experienced back then, and have been diagnosed with Combat Related PTSD. I saw lots of people badly wounded, burned, and lots of death, many died in my arms, they said their last words to me, and after leaving the army I went through intense survivors guilt, among other things, and even today I am very emotionally sensitive, and cry easily.
I have had all sorts of therapy and medical treatment but what works best for me is quiet meditation; learning how to quiet my mind has helped me function and stabilize my over-reactions and hypersensitivity. I also occasionally go to group therapy, which helps me as well. I am now a believer that everything in life is useful, regardless as to whether it is considered good or bad, and it can help us grow on our journey through life. But these things can also create obstacles, mental blocks, etc. to our personal growth. The worst things that happen to us has the potential to send us deeper within ourselves looking for answers. Going to places within ourselves which we otherwise might not visit. I do not believe that we should live in fear but I do embrace an evolving personal awareness as essential to intrinsic growth.