Hello,
Sorry to hear that. I have suffered emotional and physical abuse most of my childhood and then sexual abuse about 3 years ago. this is an extremely traumatic event. I commend you for reporting the issue because unfortunately I didn't have that strength. I commend you for seeking out help in june, but make sure you want to go because if you don't then you can't make a true commitment and will probably stop going when memories start coming back. I take zoloft 50mg daily and suffer from no side effects. It has done wonders for me. I tried seeing someone, but it wasn't for me. after a long time of going through the memories and I still have them, I have been able to understand it and go on. Although I have not forgotten the taste, smell, sounds and feelings, I have gotten to a pointe that I have accepted and have grown from it. Since then I have taken self defense classes that even if the other person out weighs you or you know them, they help you take take control and give you more options to try and help yourself. I have also found great strength in people, by telling them what happened and the reasons why i react to certain people and situations, so that they know and understand. Find yourself a great support group, whether it be fellow victims, or friends/family. You need to find a way to get through this and I'm sure you will find that way. Just be patient and take one day at a time. If there is someone (i.e. men) that you are uncomfortable with then make sure you have someone you are comfortable with that knows this and it will help greatly. I don't know your scenerio but I now carry pepper spray on my keys and practice my self defense daily. Good Luck through this journey.