All edited out but the below which it seems was all I should have posted to begin with:
"I'm not even sure now why I'm posting this. I have been to r*pe support groups and obviously others have PTSD but for whatever reason the two times I've said the initials "PTSD" in these groups it's like I've yelled FIRE. It shuts everyone up. Other than professional help, no one will talk to me about this unless it is my psychiatrist and well meaning family and friends tell me- just quit thinking about it. That is so simplistic it infuriates me. "
Last edited by Ingrid1; 05-28-2006 at 12:32 AM.
Reason: Stated in previous edit
I can't even imagine the pain and hurt that you have gone thru, you are a strong person and you will always have PTSD, but you can work thru it and figure out where to put all your traumas and then go onto a better life
You need to find a certified social worker or therapist that is specificially trained in PTSD, they have the tools that will help to bring out all the pain and anger and help you to put it away for good, so that you control it and it not it controlling you!
I have PTSD, and have had it for 40 years and w/the help of a certified social worker, I am now able to live just like everyone else, without fear, I am finally happy and content.
She changed my life and I suggest to anyone who has PTSD to find a good provider and take small steps, it does work.
Sweetie, you have had such a difficult time, you deserve to be happy and I hope you find some peace, and that you can live your life without fear and worry.
Ummmmm.....well, I had thought finally I had found a safe place to share honestly to get some help and it took me a long time to make myself post here but I never consider my judgment is always right, in fact I doubt any more it is or was ever right within the culture I live. Sorry state I only figured that out 3 years ago. As I have stated, which is also a documented fact, r*pe, is not concensual s*x. As long as the mere word or verb form of the act is treated like a dirty word, then women this has happened to will feel dirty, soiled, feel a large lose of their s*xual appeal and s*xuality, and always carrying their dirty little secret will chronically feel less than others. But what the heck, life has it's casualities. The statistic I quoted of only 5% reporting rate I do have to often think - no wonder. Likewise for children who are r*ped proportionately more often than adults, but then, let's not bring that up, it IS distasteful I admit. I can stuff my anger, I've gotten very good at it. But it is violence perpetrated by a violent person who scratched their violence by that method. Maybe it's something that just simply has to be experienced, ya think? I personally would hate to think that, but I keep running into it so - maybe I'm more screwed up about this than I thought. I'll bet if the boys I put in prison read that starred out social no-no word, they're roaring right now. I read my last post and saw that when I typed the word "r*ping" it was starred out. I wonder what will happen when I type I breast fed my children? I ****** fed my children? It's okay. Stephanie thanks again for your post and not showing repulsion at what was done TO me. This attitude towards r*pe is certainly not new to me - or I should say "The Incident".
I edit out the offensive portions of my previous posts.
Last edited by Ingrid1; 05-28-2006 at 12:15 AM.
Reason: the viable crime word "******" was starred out. That was beyond insulting. I'll go elsewhere