Hi Morgan,
To find a PTSD provider, do a google search, enter something like PTSD providers Lincoln NE and see what you get, here in NY we can search for providers using a NYS dr wweb site, does nebraska have anything like that?
Maybe your primary dr knows of one, or what about your therapist now, or what about the yellow pages of the phone book, once you start thinking about how to find one, it will be easy.
Support groups, I felt that my abuse was so personal that I just could not face listening to someone elses pain, ir telling anyone about mine, even though I wll tell anyone about it now, I have a tendancy to absorb peoples pain and I have learned to distance myself from stuff like that.
That is another thing, once you get all figured out, it is great to realize that you can make your own decisions, you are not doing something because that is what you should do, it comes down to what you want to do. Just like the support group, if someone would have said to me, you should join a support group, it would really help you, I would join, even though I would be uncomfortable, I would just do it because it was suggested to me to do it!!
Now I do what I want and to heck with anyone else. Ya know like work, school, volunteer work, friends, but you would just like to sit and cry, well once you start getting rid of your pain, you will find that there are other things you want to do, or just sit and watch the world go by and there is nothing wrong with that!
Nest time you want to punch somebody, get yourself a small baseball bat, and when that feeling somes smack the bat into a pillow, and keep doing it until you feel better. That was something I learned in therapy. Oce you do it a few times, you will never do it again, because getting the anger out is so freeing!!!
Hang in there sweetie, better days are coming
Thank you once again for the advice and comfort! 
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