Don't know where to turn... - Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) Message Board

OtakuTess · 07-03-2006, 03:02 PM

hello everyone

It has been over a year since I experienced the traumatic event. While I was in college I saw school councellors but none of them helped, and now I am graduated and I do not know where to go or who to talk to, as I cannot aford a therapist.
I don't know what to do. I feel as though there is no cure, and the events that trumatized me are so atypical that I don't feel like anyone here would even be able to not blame me for what happened. I wasn't sure if I should come here, because I don't think anyone will understand or be able to help me in this specific instance, since what happened to me was my fault.

The worst part of what happened is that I have no more passion anymore and feel unable to love the way that I used to. It makes my life pointless. I had a wonderful boyfriend who I loved and in one night all of that was gone, and he doesn't understand why and neither do I really.
Is there any hope of my getting that back? Will I ever be normal again? What do I do?
help please....

StephanieAnne · 07-03-2006, 07:46 PM

Hi

Sound like you need to talk to someone who can help you make sense of your trauma. Look for a PTSD therapist, and call and explain your problem, maybe they will take you on as a patient, and let you pay what you can, you will never know until you make the call and find out.

A PTSD therapist is trained to get all the anger out, and trained to help you understand the trauma and to get past it, and get on with your life.

It will change your life for the better

I know because it changed my life for the better

OtakuTess · 07-04-2006, 06:49 PM

Thank you for your response! I feel much better knowing that people can be helped, anyway. I still am not sure where I can start... I am afraid it would be difficult for me at this time to be able to talk to me. Life doesn't like to take a break at all so I can sort things out you know?

I have some questions though. How do I find a PTSD therapist? I am planning to be moving from the town I am in soon, and am worried about having to do a lot of switching... But mostly I am worried about not being able to pay for help, and I am wary of "free" help, as the people I have spoken to in the past in that way have actually mostly made me feel worse. One insisted my problems were because I wouldn't break up with my bf, and the other one told me I might be skitzophrenic.

err... Anyway, I guess what I am trying to say is that I don't think that I will be unable to afford something *forever* I am just worried it might take me a year or two before I have any type of useful medical covarage or income etc. I am not sure what to do, if I should wait until I can aford something or look for someone else -- if the latter, where do I look?
thank you again.

galinaqt · 07-06-2006, 08:29 AM

Why don't you talk to your new primary care phisician. Go only to person recommended by reliable source, worse thing you can do (talking from experience) trying to find somebody from insurance list.

OtakuTess · 07-06-2006, 06:37 PM

I don't have a primary care physician. o_O; I don't have any doctor because I can't afford one and I don't have insurance.