Numb - Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) Message Board

stick2013 · 01-27-2007, 06:53 AM

Hi All,

I am just numb, and have been sick physically too. How ironic I have had an intestinal bug for the past few days. If you read back into one of the post to Dustoff I did check in the other day.....The post where she said that hubby wouldn't be coming home for 4 more months.....

Icc & Nikki,

When I read the post from the both of you I cried....Your friendship is so important to me. I am so sorry that I can't be here to help the both of you, but I am just numb. Not sad, angry, happy, or depressed.....Just numb, and have nothing left to give. I haven't been out in 4 days, don't know when I will go out...

Hugs,

Sid

Sannah · 01-27-2007, 07:38 AM

Sid, it is so good to hear from you. I am so sorry that you are feeling bad. Maybe you should take some time off from helping others and accept some help yourself?

ICC · 01-27-2007, 06:09 PM

Sid-----don't you dare worry about anything except yourself until you are well again. just please know that you are not alone. I want to hug you and comfort you but know i can't and that makes it all the more difficult. You're strong, you will get through this in your own time and your own way. rest and heal. there has been a trauma whirlwing going on here for awhile and i think it took alot from all of us. but you being ahead of the game and going back so far i'm sure was like being traumatized all over.

I love you and will always pray for you!

ICC xo

stick2013 · 01-28-2007, 06:35 AM

Dear ICC & Sannah,

Thanks for the well wishes..... Today is a new day, with new feelings.

Feeling ok.... The post that Zencat wrote, just sent me into a PTSD flashback spiral.... It wasn't nice at all. I had forgotten, not about the enemas but the wearing of it's affects. Brought me right back....I have hated that house since the day that I moved out of there. My sister still lives in it. Anyway, I was back there, and remembered everything. Even what was for lunch....Chicken, mashed potatoes, and corn. My brothers kept telling me that I was gross, and were making faces at me. All while I was crying and trying to eat.....

I am much better (a little time off from the world) Still haven't moved off the couch or been out but emotionally doing better. Now if I could just exercise I would feel great....It's just one step at a time......Doing what we have to do to get through.

Sorry if I worried you, but I did say that I needed a break, and I DID check in a few days ago.

ICC..... Love you bunches girl, and hang in there you too can overcome the beast too. Set those boundaries, protect yourself, stand up and scream to the world that you will NOT be subject to their S***.....

PTSD NEVER leaves totally, it always lingers just below the surface, and will rear it's ugly head when it can. It's learning coping skills to deal with it when it happens. I tend to remove myself from the place, do the things that I like(reading is my biggy) and pampering myself for awhile, and do NOTHING!!!! Those are the things that I have developed to help me.... Now you need to find what helps you.....

Love you hon......Sorry that I upset you, it wasn't my intention. Please take care of YOU!!!!!

Hugs,

Sid

Sannah · 01-28-2007, 10:02 AM

Sid, so glad to hear from you. I am glad that you are feeling a little better. Just wanted to disagree with you a bit about recovering from PTSD. I think that people can make a total recovery if they work through everything. Your therapists told you before that you shouldn't work through everything. I am sure that people have different degrees of trauma. Some with less trauma can work through it all. Maybe you can gradually work through it all? But I am glad that you are back!