FTM, I owe you - Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) Message Board

stick2013 · 01-30-2007, 03:04 PM

Dear FTM,

I am a person that always will use honesty, and so I owe that to you also. I'm not sure if you have sensed it, but I have been a little upset with you of late. NOT ANGRY, just upset. I should have brought it up before, but I just needed time. I was upset because I felt threatened. I think it was all a misunderstanding. I was upset with you because you said that you were going to e-mail the MODS and put out a 911 on me. (kind of funny now) I did state that I needed a break, and I did check in one day, so I was upset that ANYONE would really be that concerned.....

I apologize wholeheartedly..... I do thank you for being concerned, but NOT to that point...... Will you accept my apology?????

Thanks,

Sid

Phoenix · 01-30-2007, 07:29 PM

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Originally Posted by stick2013

Dear FTM,

I am a person that always will use honesty, and so I owe that to you also. I'm not sure if you have sensed it, but I have been a little upset with you of late. NOT ANGRY, just upset. I should have brought it up before, but I just needed time. I was upset because I felt threatened. I think it was all a misunderstanding. I was upset with you because you said that you were going to e-mail the MODS and put out a 911 on me. (kind of funny now) I did state that I needed a break, and I did check in one day, so I was upset that ANYONE would really be that concerned.....

I apologize wholeheartedly..... I do thank you for being concerned, but NOT to that point...... Will you accept my apology?????

Thanks,

Sid

My dear Sid,

I literally went through all your threads and posts. When you stated the way you felt, I just jumped to the conclusion that there might have been some type of distress signal being emitted; my bad.

You see Sid, at the very least, if the moderators felt there was something that warranted attention, they at least have the means to contact you.

I felt that you really needed a hug and just stating that at the time did not seem like enough and I let my emotions get the best of me (it happens), thus the result. I just needed someone to see if you were alright.

Can you now see how others I live around see me as "different" and I keep my distance?

Sid,

We may not always agree and that's alright with me.

Did you see that thread about showing support? I don't usually do that, back to back and I thank the moderators once again for providing me a little lattitude.

I knew that you were "displeased" with me, so I gave you space; as much as you needed. If you never spoke to me again, I was prepared for that also. In a lot of ways I am that "inner child" at times and I had a difficult time getting him too behave.

How can I accept your apology for being you

. You reacted the way that you did because it is part of you, as being overly concerned is part of me.

Dear Sid,

Do you find it that difficult; that a person who is not immediate family can actually have concern for their fellow man/woman? You are deserving of it...................

I just needed for you to know that.

I humbly accept anything that you give me.....................

Take care
God Bless
FTM

stick2013 · 01-31-2007, 03:06 AM

Dear FTM,

I just felt that I owed you an explanation and an apology. That's the type of person that I am. I am glad that we can have different opinions, and still discuss things in an adult manner. That has been a rare commodity in my life.

An answer to your sort of question.......

Dear Sid,

Do you find it that difficult; a person who is not immediate family can actually have concern for their fellow man/woman? You are deserving of it...................

Yes.... I find it difficult to accept concern, gifts, compliments, help, or any other nice thing..... But I am learning how to be more gracious, and less of a SH** when people offer things. I was basically forced to be a very independent person. One who gave, and gave, but NEVER accepted. So yes I do have a problem with some things.....But life is a learning process, and i think that I am still somewhere on the curve.....

Thanks FTM,

We will talk again soon!

Hugs,

Sid

Zally · 01-31-2007, 09:05 AM

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Originally Posted by stick2013

Yes.... I find it difficult to accept concern, gifts, compliments, help, or any other nice thing..... But I am learning how to be more gracious, and less of a SH** when people offer things. I was basically forced to be a very independent person. One who gave, and gave, but NEVER accepted.

Sid, could it be that if you are independent then no one can hurt you or disappoint you? Or do you think that you are undeserving of nice things from people? Or that you just don't want anyone else "bothered" with having to do anything for you? Or is it just habit?

Phoenix · 01-31-2007, 09:24 AM

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Originally Posted by stick2013

Dear FTM,

I just felt that I owed you an explanation and an apology. That's the type of person that I am. I am glad that we can have different opinions, and still discuss things in an adult manner. That has been a rare commodity in my life.

An answer to your sort of question.......

Dear Sid,

Do you find it that difficult; a person who is not immediate family can actually have concern for their fellow man/woman? You are deserving of it...................

Yes.... I find it difficult to accept concern, gifts, compliments, help, or any other nice thing..... But I am learning how to be more gracious, and less of a SH** when people offer things. I was basically forced to be a very independent person. One who gave, and gave, but NEVER accepted. So yes I do have a problem with some things.....But life is a learning process, and i think that I am still somewhere on the curve.....

Thanks FTM,

We will talk again soon!

Hugs,

Sid

Dear Sid,

I used to play baseball and I was always cautious about the "curve" ball.

Life is a learning process and I must state for the record that you owe it to yourself; do not block the "blessings" that are coming your way.

You are one tough cookie but I like cookies

.

Take care
God Bless
FTM