That dang pelvic exam - Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) Message Board

hergy · 02-06-2007, 09:18 PM

I'm having a bit more anxiety about that than I expected.

I've even been thinking about cancelling. I shouldn't, so I haven't. I know this is probably much worse in my head. I've been having those stupid vaginal freak-outs (vaginismus).

I'm sure I'm not the first freaked out patient the gynecologist has ever had. The 19th seems to be closing in fast. I hate this so much. So much.

Lost_in_Time · 02-06-2007, 11:32 PM

I'm sorry to hear, red five, that the anxiety is growing as the time grows closer. Please don't cancel. Remember what you told me on some other thread. That we are all entitled to good health and we have to do what we have to do. Remember that you have people here who are going to be with you holding your hands and one outside the door giving you strength. You can do it!!!! Don't cancel. Just think that if you cancel, you'll have wasted all this worry over nothing and you'll just have to worry all over again when you do have to have it done. I'm soooooo proud of you for doing this, even when you don't want to do it, ESPECIALLY when you don't want to do it. Maybe it will give me the courage to do it sometime, too. The past few days have made me want to have everything cut out so I can have a life.
Hang in there...YOu can do it...and so many are here to help you through it.

Phoenix · 02-07-2007, 02:50 AM

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Originally Posted by red_five

I'm having a bit more anxiety about that than I expected.

I've even been thinking about cancelling. I shouldn't, so I haven't. I know this is probably much worse in my head. I've been having those stupid vaginal freak-outs (vaginismus).

I'm sure I'm not the first freaked out patient the gynecologist has ever had. The 19th seems to be closing in fast. I hate this so much. So much.

Nikki,

What are you afraid of specifically ? (think about it)

Take care
God Bless
FTM

duzford · 02-07-2007, 02:58 AM

Ask the doctor is you could talkto him/her first in their office before you go into the exam room. Tell them how you are feeling and they can help put you at ease. If this is your first time with this doc and there are others in the practice, ask the front desk who is the most "gentle". When you go for the appointment bring your favorite stuffed animal with you to "hug" during the exam. I was in your boat too. I went five years between exams because I am a rape survivor and the first doc was so clinical I fel violated all over again. I talked to my PCP about this and he shared it with his staff (females and rape counselors) who found me someone in the area to go to. They even "filled her in" ahead of time. If you are too anxious perhaps they can give you a mild sedative.

stick2013 · 02-07-2007, 05:39 AM

Dearest Nikki,

Hi sweetie....It's ok to be nervous, it's even ok to be scared. If you weren't I would worry......Everyone's advice has been great. We will all be with you, FTM will be singing "Lean on me" right outside the door, and I think that 2plus is right. Call ahead(Like today) tell them your concerns, and they may be ble to call you in a zanax before the exam to calm you down a little. After this one, things will get better........

Remember you are at a higher risk of cancer....I already had cervical cancer so I go faithfully every year. The first 2 years I had to go every 3 months.... This is part of your recovery Nikki.......

I love you sweetie, and I will be with you, as will ICC and FTM.... Just close your eyes, and think of us, we will be there....

Love you bunches,

Big squishy hugs....LOTS of them

Sid