theskater

hi skittles__

i was actually just in a wreck myself for the first time ever (i'm 23) this past june.

i was less than a mile from work when a woman in the left turning lane on the opposite side of the road turned infront of me... hitting me on my left headlight. i was going around 50mph.

after i was hit, the impact detoured my car and sent it straight into a utility post. the tow-truck had to pry my car off of the pole, set it down, and repick it up in order to take it away.

funny you mentioned the car - i was driving a 98 ford taurus too.

i have to drive by the scene of the accident everyday and i still get really nervous about it. heck, i'm nervous about driving in general anymore.
i use to be so relaxed but now, if anyone comes within a 30ft radius, i can feel my anxiety levels soar.

it's gotten better over the last few months but it's hard to get over. especially if you're like me and think that you're invincible.

even when i drive with other people, i get extremely nervous and find myself not able to deal with the anxiety at times. so i usually wear a hat when i'm a passenger and just pull the hat down over my face.

but i have also thought too, and i'm not a religious person by any means, that when the time has come for me to leave this earth it will happen whether it's in a car or sitting on my porch swing.

the main thing is try to breathe and just work on making little goals for yourself. try to drive down a few streets w/o paranoia. i know it's hard but it helped me a bit. i believe that the incident has also left me with PTSD and/or depression since my knee hit the dash board i now have what is called patellar tracking disorder…and that's not good when you need your knees to play roller derby like i do. so it's rather depressing at times knowing it will never be the same.

hope this helps. keep your chin up.
holly