My Angel is with God - Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) Message Board

stick2013 · 06-02-2007, 07:28 PM

Just got the phone call. My

Drew passed away at 7 pm tonight. His mom said that he went peaceful. I will miss him with all of my heart. I am glad that I said goodbye...

Sid

Phoenix · 06-02-2007, 07:43 PM

Dear Wendy,

I am pleased that you went to see Drew.

It will make all the difference in the world in the days to come.

My prayers are with you and Drew's family.

Take care
God Bless
FTM

beka6 · 06-02-2007, 08:19 PM

Sid,
He's finally free.

You and his family will be in my prayers.

Love,
Beka

stick2013 · 06-03-2007, 04:37 AM

Thanks FTM & Beka.....

I know that he is free and can finally breath without the aid of O2. How it must have felt for him to finally take his first FULL breath......

So now my finally battle is here today. ICC and FTM... You both know that my triggers with death come from when my grandmother die when I was 10, and forced to KISS her dead body everyday x2 for 5 days. OH GOD just thinking about it is getting to me. I can see her OH CRAP!!!!!

Ok so they are waking Drew at home. Oh god!!!! The casket is there. I talked to a friend last night that went over as soon as he passed to help straighten things out. She said he was already laid out in the casket...

Going to see him before he died was tough enough. It wasn't a pretty sight. Actually it was very hard watching him in a coma, eyes open, staring blank, and fighting for breath. But he was still alive.

I have to be there this afternoon to get the house ready for the wake. How am I going to do this???????? I know be strong. Yeah ok, I know that, but the flashbacks are already starting, the anxiety....The FEAR!!!!!!!

ICC · 06-03-2007, 04:53 AM

Dear Wendy,
I know there are no words to take away the pain, fear and loss you feel, so i won't try.You have had so much of your past slap you lately. Going to see Drew was a positive step in your "new" life. Hard as it was I think you knew you needed to and pulled from the strength and knowledge you have aquired over the years. God rest his beautiful soul in His arms. Drew is at peace now. No more pain. Fresh air fillling his lungs. I know that thought gives you peace as you love him so.

Try to remember your Grandmother's death was part of your past. It's not today. It's not Drew. You were a child. You are a strong well put together adult now who is capable of doing what needs to be done. No one is forcing you to do anything. These are your well thought out decisions now. Drew will be watching you from above and know how hard this is for you. Let him give you comfort and peace knowing he loved you also.

My prayers are with you and the family. Arms are around you. You'll feel us all there holding you if you let yourself.

I love you,
Angel xo

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AKA-ICC
AKA- "Miss Cranky Pants"