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ICC · 06-04-2007, 08:00 AM

Sorry to all who think I am being nasty or ^%&*()$. That is not my intent. I love all of you BUT have tried to help and been slapped for doing it at times. My physical pain has come into play here and I am trying with all the strength I have to NOT let my PTSD flare up or have another bout of major depression set in. So if I slight someone , please forgive me and consider that I am hurting right now and not myself.

Started PT 2 weeks ago. Doing good. Better than expected considering my other health issues. Last week I had a girl I don't like becasue of the holiday. I had to tell her numerous times that she was hurting me, the pullys were tearing my neck up and to please lighten up a little that my shoulder would heal in it's own time. Doesn't matter to me if it's in 12 weeks or 16. Seemed to matter alot ot the PT. She must get a gold star for rushing people along. I am not 25. I am 53 with diabetes and fibro. Adds to the recovery time. Last week she was manipulating my shoulder while talking to another patient across the room. Not paying any attention to how hard she was tugging at my arm. I had my back arched and was saying "OK THAT'S ENOUGH, YOU'RE KILLING ME" She didn't hear this as she was too busy talking. At one point I felt a snap, not a big one but all the same a snap in my pectoral muscle. I told her and then showed her how my collar bone and entire chest muscle had blown up like a water balloon. She said it's normal. On the way out I asked the receptionist to please never chane my PT from my regular one to her. That day and the whole next day I was getting worse. I called the surgeon and he said to stop all PT as I had a sprained muscle from too aggressive PT. Boy was I ****ed. I called the facility and told them. the next day the PT calls me, not her supervisor, herself and proceeded to give me a hard time that she did nothing wrong and I should have told her if she was hurting me. I told her I did but she was paying no attention and that I was not going to debate this with her over the phone. She then said stopping PT ws not a good idea. I told her it was the surgeon's decision not hers. So I have suffered at her hands and been set back to where I was 2 weeks ago. Don't see the surgeon until next Tuesday. Tried to call to schedule sooner but he's booked so I am on standby. I don't know at this point if she tore something or what. All I know is I am in pain constantly and resent the fact that I was making great headway and now am back to square one. it is effecting my thought process trememdously, though I am trying so hard not to let it. I have to call her supervisor and at this point am not up to another confrontation. I can feel myelf getting discouraged and slipping into and "I don't care anymore" mindset. The constant pain is reminding of HOW, WHERE and WHY I got injured in the first place. Anger is setting in. I am fighting it tooth and nail. I have no control over what has already happend but know I do about where it goes from here. Not strong physically right now and of coure that is weakening me emotionally and mentally. Sorry if I have upset anyone but I can feel history repeating itself and I don't want it to. Trying my best. Trying to help others for the last couple of weeks has been a big help but I am starting to feel that I haven't been able to. Ok that's my vent. Again sorry for the nastiness, it is not meant towards anyone but my situation.

ICC

stick2013 · 06-04-2007, 08:20 AM

Dear ICC,

You have every right to be angry, depressed, and yes even nasty. You just need to get it out in a healthy manner, and direct it at the people that need it. I would call the supervisor, explain it to her, and if she starts taking the side of her employee, I would remind her that YOU as the patient is who PAYS her salary. Also I would state that when ANY patient is in the care of one of her therapist, that THE PATIENT SHOULD ALWAYS remain the therapist #1 priority. NOT gabbing with someone else. (The place I went to, had SEPARATE ROOMS with doors. 1 person 1 therapist per room, undivided attention) I would also add that if any damage occurred because of this, you may just need to call your attorney. THAT statement usually gets their ATTENTION really fast. Law suits are never a good thing.........

As far as helping people......You have done a wonderful job.....I don't feel that you have slighted anyone. As a matter of fact, know now what you have been going through, I would say that you need to back off a bit, and relax. But I know too that doing something CAN help to take the mind off things...

I wish there was something I could do to help you.......Know that I love you and care......Take care of you....YOU are #1...

Love n hugs,

Wen........aka...Sid

ICC · 06-04-2007, 08:29 AM

Thanks Sid.......I don't know which was bothering me more. Being misunderstood and hurting someone here or my own crap.

I'm so tired of having to confront people when it comes to my health. After I had the breakdown last summer I really stepped up to the plate and took control of my health issues including the WC injuries. I am just so tired and don't feel like going through this again. I always had the same 2 PT's for my neck. Loved them both. I requested one particular one for my arm because I know he's good and listens. He believes in stopping when it hurts. I had two sessions with him and it made a world of difference in my ROM. I feel like this Lisa ruined what I have been taking care of,and I am religious about doing what I have to do, and what my regular PT was doing for me. You know what setbacks do. I am going to heat my arm, exercise it, call the supervisor and will be back with whatever I can offer all here. It does make me feel good to be able to help. I care about people. I should have been able to drive by next week , now won't be able to for another 2 weeks. On top of everything hubby has something goin gon in his belly and needs another colonoscopy and CT scan. I added him back onto my health inusrance starting July 1st. he only has Medicare right now so it will cost us a coupld of thousand $$$$ in co-pays . Going to call his PCP and see if it can wait a month and also ask ubby how bad th epain is if he can wait a month. This crap is all getting on my last nerve.

Love,
ICC

stick2013 · 06-04-2007, 08:54 AM

ICC,

Do what you need to do.....I have the wake to go to today....Will be back later.

As far as hubby is concerned....ICC I understand your concerns about the $$$ issues, but......Should you really wait with his health????

Love you,

Sid

ICC · 06-04-2007, 10:21 AM

Sid.....my thoughts go with you. Don't hold back whether there or when you get home. Let them out. Cry until you can't cry anymore.

I talked to Hubby this morning and he said the Dr. didn't think it was an emergency. Just to double check I will talk to his PCP who is also mine tomorrow morning and make sure it won't hurt to wait a month. This has been off and on for about a year. Pain comes and goes. it seems to have something to do with food. No temp. Not always there. Diverticultis was my fear but he had a colonoscopy done a year ago and all was fine. Also had the CT scan, Upper Gi and God knows what else. I think he needs to stop eating whatever brings the pain on. You know how some people won't take the time to pay attention??? That's hubby. I called the supervisor who of course is on vacation until next Wed. and left a message. Am on stand by with the surgeon. Feel better since I 've called both and talked to you. I should have never held this back. for weeks. Won't happen again.

FTM.....see what happens when you hold it in.

Love and prayers,
ICC