beka6

Sid,
You are always so good to be concerned about everyone - even when you are going through hell yourself. I read your post to ICC about the wake today. I have been thinking of you a lot during this whole ordeal. I'm sorry that I've been so lousy at helping you.
When you love someone through serving them, there is a bond that is formed that nothing can break. You have made a difference in the lives of this family. They have made a difference in yours. This is a very special gift. I am glad for you that you have had this wonderful experience - knowing Drew and his family and being able to beat your triggers throughout this entire process. You've done really well. In time, you'll process the pain and hold onto the love.

Things have been overwhelming for the past couple of weeks. I think I finally buckled under. Memorial Day was the birthday of my good friend who passed away in December. He would have been 92 this year. He was also a war veteran (WWII). I have missed him a lot and felt especially sad when we visited his grave the Sunday before Memorial Day. He was a great man. He died of the complications of neglect at a local nursing home. Because he had no children or immediate family (I was his POA, etc...) the nursing home staff treated him horribly, despite our many complaints. It was disgusting to see a man who once fought for our country treated with so little dignity. Anyway... that churned up a lot of stuff.

Then, I received a letter from a good friend of mine that proceded to tell me how I had offended her over the past year or so. I'm glad that she communicated this with me, but the letter really caught me off guard. I was really upset and found myself analyzing how I interact with everyone around me. Am I so soaked up with my own problems that I am hurting those around me? Then, when I found myself unable to offer support on this board, I just kind of unravelled.

There's more, but I think I've said enough for now.

Take care of yourself, Sid. I hope you can feel Drew's spirit softly speaking to you over the next few days. I hope you can feel peace.

Beka