Weird thinking???? - Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) Message Board

stick2013 · 06-07-2007, 04:41 PM

HI Guys,

Ok, so all of you are going to call 911 and have me comitted after reading this....

I had to go shopping today, actually I just needed to get away from the dogs for awhile. Binx got into a can of bread crumbs and made a huge mess all over. I swear that dog is dead dog meat......Or will be when I get done with him.....

So anyway, I had to drive by Drews house. OK, I know I am nuts....I actually had thoughts that he wasn't really dead. I REALLY had to think about it, and then convince myself that he was....It was the weirdest thing I have ever gone through. It was like time just stopped for a few minutes, or reversed or something. It took me maybe 3-4 minutes to come into reality sort of. Oh I don't know what I am trying to explain, or even if I can.

It has bothered me all afternoon. I know he is dead, so why did I have those weird thoughts today??? Denial???? I don't think so. Just a very sureal, weird few minutes....

Any thoughts???

All I know is that I hope it never happens again. It really freaked me out for a few minutes.

Hugs,

Sid

Dee-nah · 06-07-2007, 04:49 PM

Sid, do you think it's because you just haven't accepted it yet?? It's only been less then a week (am I right? my head was in the clouds)... I think this is perfectly normal, it just hasn't registered yet.

stick2013 · 06-07-2007, 04:52 PM

I don't know Dee. It was just the weirdest feelings and thoughts. He died last Sat, service was Tueday, and he was cremated. I KNOW he is dead. I saw his body, I touched him, rubbed his head. But today when I drove by his house the feelings and thoughts ....I just can't explain them....

Sid

Dee-nah · 06-07-2007, 04:56 PM

I know I don't do well with death and from what I read on your post you don't do well with it either. It's almost like you live in that moment (meaning the services) and when it's over it's like it never happen, it wasn't real.

When you went by his house maybe in your mind it was still thinking he was alive since it's normal now, before it was him being sick, then him being in a coma, then him passing away. It was a long process and it's over...

Does that make sense?

ICC · 06-07-2007, 05:07 PM

Sid ,you and Drew may have had contact. Now don't go thinking I'm nuts because then the two of us are going away together for a long time

This happens and is in my opinion a wonderful experience. Even though it freaked you out once it sinks in you'll be more comfortable. When loved ones die, they visit in different ways. Might be a sound, smell, or just a feeling that they're near you. I think that's what you experienced. He knew you would have a hard time and is near by to comfort you.

God bless,
Grasshopper