Beka - Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) Message Board

stick2013 · 06-09-2007, 10:10 AM

Hi Hon,

You haven't been on much lately, and I am kind of worried. Just wanted to know how you are feeling, and if there is anything we can do to help?????

Please let us know......

We all love n miss you..

Sid and the gang

beka6 · 06-09-2007, 04:40 PM

Hi Sid,
Thanks for your concern. I am just surviving right now - kind of a strange feeling. I'm so sorry for not being there for everyone - especially with you and the loss you've had with Drew's passing. I think about everyone here, I just feel like my energy and compassion have dried up. There is not one specific thing that has sent me over the edge - it's just a culmination of so many things.
I'm uncovering things during therapy that I wish I didn't have to face.... I just need to work through it all little by little.

I hope you are doing well, Sid. Take care of yourself,

Beka

ICC · 06-09-2007, 05:02 PM

Beka....You are so right. little by little. one day at a time. It is so draining when you start to make headway in therapy. just remembering takes so very much out of you. Please know that prayers and thoughts are with you. Be well. Be safe.

Hugs,
Grasshopper

stick2013 · 06-09-2007, 05:09 PM

Oh Beka.... I am so sorry that you are having a rough time right now. Going through therapy is so hard. Harder to face what we have been running from for so long. As you know it HAS to happen. We need to get it out, face it, rationalize it, analyze it, accept it, and move on. It's hard, but in order to move forward you have to do it.

I wish that there was something I could say(or do) to help you, but this is a battle that you have to do on your own. We can help with picking you up when you have fallen, and stand you back up on your feet. We can be the shoulder to lean on, or the

to cheer you up. We can be the

to make you laugh if needed. Just know that we are ALL here if you need. Just give us a holler, a scream or shout, and we will be there....

Be safe, be strong, and do something nice on Sunday just for you. A reward for being a survivor........I am sending

's to watch over you, and help you along on your journey...

Many warm hugs,

Sid

beka6 · 06-09-2007, 08:50 PM

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Originally Posted by stick2013

We can help with picking you up when you have fallen, and stand you back up on your feet. We can be the shoulder to lean on, or the

to cheer you up. We can be the

to make you laugh if needed. Just know that we are ALL here if you need. Just give us a holler, a scream or shout, and we will be there....

Sid,
I wonder if you have any idea how much your words mean to me. I would do anything to have family members like you and others on this board. But, since I don't, consider yourself adopted!

I'm not even totally sure what is going on with me right now, so I don't even know what I need to fix it. I have my ups and downs, but usually the downs turn into ups by now. This one is lasting for a while. It's not like I'm really suicidally depressed right now, just pensive and sad. I feel like I'm mourning for something. It's weird... I know it has something to do with my family of origin and getting to the point of cutting the emotional attatchment. I thought I had made more progress in this area, but I guess I'm only beginning.

ICC,
It's settled... I'm adopting you, too!

I could use your prayers right now, so thank you for those. I've never uncovered this much in therapy before. I've only scratched the surface before, whereas, this time I've got the backhoe, digging up all the old junk. All I can say is that it better be worth it when I'm done!

I love both of you and THANK YOU for being so caring when you have bucket-loads of your own worries right now.

Beka