Oh, yet another question - Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) Message Board

isitme · 07-06-2007, 05:28 AM

Picking up of what you said, icc

"Hi all............In reading this thread I've realized how many years I was a robot. I understand and have experienced most of what all of youtalk about but it is so far in the past for me I have no words of wisdom. I guess I just kept plugging along, did what I had to do everyday and ignored what I was going through"

It's only over the last couple of years or so that I can say I felt exactly the same as you (and did so for 20 years +)

How scary. So to my next question. How long do people limp along, not knowing, not seeking help and guidance or therapy? Although I still can't pinpoint where it started, I definately know it was many, many years ago! No one can fix themselves IF they have no idea that they are broken and it seems to creep up on you so gradually. Thank goodness for the internet and all of you!
(also icc, in hindsight do you think it was a symptom of ptsd or the result of your x? Just wondering as it sounds like we both had similar).

Dee-nah · 07-06-2007, 05:45 AM

I had a traumatic incident happen to me, went to the pdoc and from there it was all due to being Bipolar! My pdoc put me on Prozac which spiraled me into mania which landed me in the hospital.... This was when I was 32, I'm 33... Still a wee baby at this....

Good question, isitme!

ICC · 07-06-2007, 06:32 AM

Hi all.......JMO! I think the delay in seeing what we're going through is a result of PTSD. isitme, my PTSD stemmed from my mother BUT was not full blown until I met my first husband. So I do think his abuse is what brought it to a head and caused me years of knowing something wrong but not what it was or what to do with it. I was in therapy from the time I was 29 and finally about 4-5 years ago had a counselor who dx me. That changed it all for me. I read, educated myself on PTSD but really didn't get anwhere until I came here and started to see a PTSD counselor. In hindsight, I now know I spent most of my life since being a child in a state of no self-esteem, shame and embarrasment for what my abusers did to me and what I allowed. When your own mother doesn't like you what would that say to a child? Then your first relationship is with an abusive alcoholic told me that was all I was worth and deserved whatever I got. First I broke the cycle of co-dependency and then through alot of counseling got a grip on the PTSD and then knew what had caused the lack of self-esteem along with all of my dysfunction. Help any?

ICC

beka6 · 07-06-2007, 12:17 PM

There is true empowerment that comes with educating ourselves about the way we think and feel. If we are unhappy or discontented with something in our lives, we have to get to the point where we realize that we have power to change. It's a process... for me, I just realized that I was miserably weighed down with too many years of accumulated guilt and shame. I couldn't breathe.
It took 6 psychiatrists for me to finally find one that diagnosed me with PTSD. That was my turning point...

Beka

Lost-in-Time · 07-06-2007, 01:34 PM

Stupid question......what is a pdoc?