Holes in Memory - Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) Message Board

Lost-in-Time · 07-11-2007, 08:36 PM

Do you sometimes feel like you are "making stuff up" as you go along when you are trying to fill the holes in your memory? Like, you have to have something there so maybe your mind has just created something that fits and you can't tell what is true and what isn't?

JACKFLASH · 07-11-2007, 09:41 PM

I feel that way all the time. I wish I knew what was real and what is just confused junk in my mind. I've had to let it go. What I'm remembering is real to me. I just have to deal with it in therepy. It does make me feel crazy at times.
Jack

Survivor 1957 · 07-11-2007, 10:15 PM

hi guys,
Holes in the memory bank...wow my life looks like a piece of swiss cheese....i cant remember so much, when family talks of the past I just sit and listen, I do not even let them know that I have know idea of what they are talking about anymore... its not worth the conversation of "come on you remember",,
I do not make up stories I just live what i have memory of, God knows I would like to have no memories of the abuse and assaults!
k

Lost-in-Time · 07-11-2007, 11:13 PM

Thanks to you two for answering....I agree...I would rather NOT remember....but then things come and I just doubt myself as to whether its a real memory or something I've seen on tv somewhere.....guess that's part of the reason I NEVER tell anyone..I don't want to tell any lies..

JACKFLASH · 07-11-2007, 11:30 PM

LIt
I feel the same way. Some of the things I remember are so awful I don't want to think that they are true. It is hard to go from remembering nothing to remembering all these awful things but thats why people block things. What you remember real or not is your reality. It's not lieing. It's what your mind does to protect you.I've found that some of the things that I remmebered are faulse. They are in there for a reason. I'm not a person that lies. It just happened. My mind put those memories there to protect me.