Re: Can PTSD backfires 20-30 or even 40 years later?
I too have PTSD, I experienced the first 10 years of my life in horror. I'm 36 now and it has just been triggered. Recently, my MIL whom I cared for since 99, died from MS. I was her primary caregiver and she lived with us. After her death I ended up in the hospital with Heart Attack symptoms. It was stress and anxiety that elevated my blood pressure. For the next 3 months - nightmares, anxiety attacks, depression and black out times started becoming promonent in my mind.
I went to a Phy.Dr. and he explained that as children or young adults - our minds are not mature enough to process tramatic events. We go into survival mode and basically file them until we are emotionally mature enough to process them. Anything can trigger the PTSD - but normally it is something that is similar to your previous tramatic experience.
This really helped me to accept what I was feeling. See, I didn't feel like I had the right to grieve over my childhood experiences. It felt like I was making a big deal over something that happend too long ago. Since I had talked about plenty of times and told the story to so many people... I thought I had come to terms with it. I hadn't I was retelling events that I had not internalized or emotionally processed.
When I became a young adult I could tell the story without much emotion. It became very confusing to me. My husband was trying to deal with the death of his mother and his wife was having a melt down.
Now that I understand the how my mind is working - I can better accept the PTSD. I've begun taking Lamictal for it and it has helped tremendously.
I hope this helps you all some,