No One Will Listen To Me!!! - Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) Message Board

elebell2006 · 07-05-2008, 08:50 PM

Okay,
my only freedom or should I say venting space...I guess is this message board. I was raped...and now I am pregnant. I am 19 years old. I will be 20 on July 9th. I am very lucky that I am alive after that experience. The police know...I did a R.K.
My parents do not know. I am in college, and on summer "Break." I have talked to my best friend about it...she refuses to even speak with me about it...my previous counselor cant talk to me about it because of some personal things happening in her life right now, which I respect. My other "Friends" refuse to even think about it. I do not I understand that it is a hard subject but.....someone....anyone...HELLO!!!:con fused:
It just really makes me angry that I have to stay silent until I go back to school. I do not know what I am going to do with myself. I have never felt this alone in my entire life! People ask me why my parents dont know...well it is too complicated to explain...they would not be able to handle it. THEY REALLY WOULDNT!!! Take my word for it..please.
I am only almost a month....THATS IT! I am feeling really weird. Maybe its nerves...I dont even understand why the people that "love me" are not supporting me? I suppose things will work out in the end...

ughhh.

healthseeker · 07-06-2008, 01:14 AM

I am so sorry that you feel so alone. I am sorry if this is too personal: might I ask why you decided to continue the pregnancy after what you have been through? One of my reasons for asking is because you said your parents could not handle knowing what happened to you. Well, sooner or later, they will ask who the father is. And it will be hard on you, no?

I have felt as if I had no one to talk to before and it is awful. I think b/c when things get really tough, people don't know what to say...so they say nothing. I think most people are like this, I really do. It is a fear or something.

Please take care of yourself and know there ARE PEOPLE who care, even if they don't show it always.

fallenangel065 · 07-06-2008, 07:00 AM

I have been raped before too. I am also 19. It was by someone I knew and he actually tried to purposely get me pregnant. I know how you feel to have no one. I've had some time to cope with my situation but I feel like maybe our loved ones arent there for us because thy really don't know what to say. It's really hard to talk about something so traumatic, especially if you've never experienced it. If a friend approache you or I about being raped we would know how to talk to them. Thats the way I see it. I only had one friend to go to after my rape and thats only because she too was raped and molested. Just try harder to find a friend, you will find at least one person that will be your shoulder. I did, it just took me awhile to find her.

Phoenix · 07-06-2008, 09:10 AM

Hello El,

Sorry to hear about this; truly and sincerely.

If your present counselor cannot speak to you about this then you need to find one that can.

At this point in time, you have a lot of decisions to make and none of them are going to be easy.

Know that we are here; if or when you need us.

No one should be alone or feel as they are at a time like this.

Take care and God Bless.

Respectfully,

Phoenix

casatonia 1 · 07-07-2008, 06:05 PM

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I have talked to my best friend about it...she refuses to even speak with me about it...my previous counselor cant talk to me about it because of some personal things happening in her life right now, which I respect. My other "Friends" refuse to even think about it. I do not I understand that it is a hard subject but.....someone....anyone...HELLO!!!:con fused:
People ask me why my parents dont know...well it is too complicated to explain...they would not be able to handle it. THEY REALLY WOULDNT!!! Take my word for it..please.

First off im sorry to say that these people are not your friends,friends are there for you especially if something like this has happened,maybe you need to see a new councillor as yours is away.im so sorry for what happened,i was very close to being in your situation and i remember how scared i was-although i cant imagine the pain your in.something struck me about your post though-why do you ask us to take your word for it? we are not here to judge,criticise or in any way call you a liar-we are your support network so to speak and we will always have our eyes open. cass