undeniablekarma

Hi everybody. The past few months have been pretty stressful for me, and although I haven't been to any doctors or diagnosed with PTSD, I just wanted to share my story and hopefully alleviate some of my suffering.

*edited by mentalhealthmod

My dad had to come and get me from the repair shop, looking extremely disappointed in me. He and my mother hardly talked to me that entire weekend, and the ride back to campus with my dad was completely silent. I've never felt worse in my life.

Since I've gotten my car back, I've had an awful fear of driving, especially on the highway. Since I live at home for the summer, I always try to take my parents' cars when I need to be on the highway, since I don't fear driving as much in those cars. When I'm in my car and MUST take the highway, I drive 55-60 MPH. On regular roads I fear spinning out, and I slow down and crawl over any bumps and literally have my stomach drop when I see a change in color in the pavement (paint stains, skid marks, etc.) I've never been so scared in my life. Every time I get into a car all I can think about is spinning out and crashing. I don't know if I fear another accident or the disappointment of my parents more.

My fear hasn't gone away or lessened, even though it's been more than 6 months since the accidents. I'm scared I won't come home as often to see my parents due to my fear, and that my relationship with them will falter. My stomach drops at the thought of another winter.

I know these are probably rational responses to what I've gone through, but I would like any help or advice on how to lessen my fear of driving. Most of all, I'm just appreciative if any of you read this, since I can't talk to my parents or my friends about what I've gone through and how I'm feeling.

Thanks