gwoman

Hello Maybecrazy.....I have checked and re-checked certain things for years. I have come to accept it and I think it through when I am in this mode of behavior. I go to the back door and lock it, I stand there and say, okay, it is locked I know for sure it is locked as good as it can be, I know I checked, I am free of any worry or doubt, period. I know I checked the stove, if I must, for my own sanity and security, I will recheck something, anything, but I go through a process that helps me remember as I stand there telling myself I have done all that I can do, it is locked, it is off, I know this for sure. Sometimes I will leave the room, put my hand on the door knob to leave and recall the things I rechecked. This helps me tremendously, I still, to this very day, have to turn my car around and go home and recheck. I still have to get out of bed and recheck, but it is less, when I go through the process of thinking it through and telling myself that I indeed did lock up, turn off, I did everything I could do and I can relax, do whatever I need to do in my home. Safety and peace come, definitely at a price for us, I pray a lot, I receive a lot of assurance through prayer. I wouldn't be here without it and I wont survive without it. I just try to accept this (even though it makes me mad at times and frustrates me to death), I accept that this process helps give me the security and peace of mind that I need to move forward. I feel silly to go through this over and over, but I do and I am 45. Go figure. I hope this is helpful, I know some things can be and others are not, just throw this one out if it is useless to you. Please, take care and have a good day......I'm here.....G