kubali

My childhood was extremelly difficult. Emotional abuse from my father. Abandonment from my mother. Real possibility that both my father and sister are bi-polar. In my twenties had a horrific experience when my boyfriend threatened me with a knife whilst driving on motorway. He yanked on handbreak and car span out of control.travelling at about 75 mph. I then went into what I now realise was an abusive marriage. Had 2 children. Diagnosed with depression soon after. !6 years of marriage, then I left. My ex-husband hounded, stalked and terrorised me for 4 years. Had some counselling. Met new people and eventually made safer selection and re-married and moved away. I asked my daughters to come with me but they still live with their father. Other traumas in my life have happened leaving me with terror of heights.Am I suffering from PTSD. I want to move on with my recovery and gain a stimulating and fulfilling life. I don't make friends easily and carry a lot of shame and fear.


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Please point me in a direction which would be most beneficial. Thank you so much for caring.