taking a deep breath
i'm new here and came due to the fact that after having been diagnosed and in treatment for bipolar for 16 years, it is coming undeniably to light to me, my fiance, and my doctors that it isnt bipolar, but ptsd and depression. So having lived that many years thinking that way has me very rattled and confused.
I grew up in a very strict ministers home in the 60's and 70's, and was abused from the time I was 2, physically, mentally, emotionally, and sexually. It is strongly suspected due to symptoms I have that I was at the very least molested, if not raped around the age of 5 or 6, though I cannot achieve any recall of the who when what etc.
I have also been in relationships with women who were violent, borderline, and in the case of my ex-wife having sociopathic tendencies. My fiance has ptsd as well and has been a great help and resource, including getting me plugged in to EMDR therapy, which helps greatly.
I am wondering though, how, in our relationship, we avoid triggering each other while still being able to express what we feel. It is like walking a tightrope and neither of us know quite how to handle it.