so in high school during the summer i helped to take care of two great grandmothers of mine, and, well, the first one had bad hips, dementia, and heart issues, and the second had Alzheimers, and both died shortly after i had to go back to school, *two different summers* I watched both of them go from nice loving grandparents to horribly mean, hurting me and my family, and then die. The first one i had been really close to my whole life, i was always her favorite, and up until a few months before she died she was always nice to me, then she started saying horrible things, and tried to stab me with a screw driver... This past weekend i went to see my only remaining great grandmother, and i walked in and hugged her, and she was so frail, and has been having mini strokes my mind immediately went back to taking care to the first of the other two, i felt horrible and depressed when i saw her, or tried to talk to her, i tried the whole weekend not to be left alone with her. I love my family, and great grandma, but i just can't be around her... is this ptsd? What do i do?
ONH and nystagmus causing legal blindness
Sorry to hear of your loss. I do not think this is ptsd. It sounds like a normal young lady that got to see two examples of the reality of old age and death. Some times we all have to take time to work these things out for ourselves. Her condition just reminds you of the others. Talk to your family and tell them it is a little too much for you right now. It happens to us all if we care.
You know what I do about things like that is to remember what they were like when they were healthy. When they were in control. I remember the good things about them. Try not to think about them when they left us, but the person they were when they were here. The good things we shared.