This is something that has always disturbed me a bit - I got sexually assaulted a few years back, and my reaction (starting from immediately afterward through at least the first month) was laughter. Has anyone else experienced this? It just seems like such an awful reaction, and it makes me worry that there's something wrong with me.
I knew I wasn't happy (I mean, no way!) and I knew the laughter was wrong... but I just couldn't make it stop. Every time I thought about what happened or I got a flashback, I'd start laughing - and then when I was with other people and I was trying to act normal, I laughed all the time, at everything, even if it wasn't really funny at all. It was pretty horrible. I think it really freaked out my friends. I didn't cry for over a month either - it was like laughter was the substitution for the proper reaction of tears. I was fully aware of how wrong this reaction was, and I'd feel all creeped out and disgusted even as I was laughing.
Is this familiar to anyone? Or anything like it? In any case, thank you for any input.
Reaction to a trauma can vary. It does not always have to take the fear or anger emotion. Emotions or the lack of emotions is how the mind tries to adapt, accept or justify what happened. The lack of crying is a good sign that pain was held deep inside. Your feeling of discuss comes from you not having control over the release of these feelings.