hello, My heart goes out to you. I am only a fellow PTSD-survivor & not a doctor but what I can tell you is hang in there. I would definitely suggest that you tell your doctor, or if you feel uncomfortable look up a domestic violence or rape non-profit in your area. They have support and education groups that may help. Again, in my experience & not as a medical professional, have been battling multiple traumas since early childhood (rape, molest, domestic violence as a young adult etc.) I would have flashbacks but kind of push them down. It sounds like that is what you are doing. I have been advised and followed the suggestion-don't dig. Your mind has a way of protecting you from the trauma until it thinks you are ready. Now at 53, I am ready. I am dealing with some heavy-duty stuff. At my age and with 20+ years of sobriety, i CAN deal with it now. I had lone periods of employemnt and functionality-I am not working for a while now but I have hope-for me & for you-that we can get better. I wish you well on your journey.