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Thanks, that's a good explanation. For a long time after the event, I would completely avoid the street it happened on, and dodge people that looked remotely like my attackers. My mind wasn't done assessing what happened to it until a while after that year when there was a period where my head wasn't so injured. I'm pretty sure my 3rd injury of that year brought out most of the anxiety. In 9th grade my anxiety got to a point where I was contemplating being medicated but a I said, I worked mentally on it.
And yes, I know marijuana (especially the more potent forms) can be damaging to the young brain and hinder growth of the limbic system and stunt synaptic pruning, etc. I used it very infrequently, and when use increased I decided to stop and give it a rest. I picked it back up every now and then in 8th grade, but decided my life was more rich without it. But the drug use is not the sole factor in my anxiety, though it could have been one of them. Being attacked in combination with the profound effects of the hash and the series of head injuries probably surfaced a dormant anxiety disorder (which I'd say I am doing well on getting over with through thinking, meditation, and other aids).
Psychedelics are a whole other issue. Physiologically, they have very minimal effects on the brain. From what I've seen, most adolescents abuse the drugs out of irresponsibility, hence the mental instability.
For mental acuity, I've decided that for most of next year, I am doing no drugs. Weed is too middle school (and negatives outweigh positives), ecstasy too adulterated this time of year, and I am through with psychedelics for now, though they have helped immensely with issues as well as my state of well being.
I go through ups and downs about that whole situation. I posted this thread on one of my downs. These days I meditate, play my instrument, and ponder life in general to completely throw the past behind me and create a great next school year.
Last edited by equilibrium1; 08-03-2010 at 10:11 AM.