| Vivid Nightmares After Traumatic Life Event
My whole world fell apart when I found out my now ex-fiance confessed to cheating on me for several months and he chose to be with her. Even after 5 1/2 years together as a family (we have a daughter). Its been 7 months now and I dont feel better. She has now moved in to the house with him. I have horrible nightmares about him and the other woman. Or me moving back in the house be she's painted all the walls and everything looks different because im not there, she is. I have dreams where I think Im sleeping in our old bed and I wake up to realize Im not in the old bed. I dream that me and my ex get back together and our family is together again. It all feels so real. I'll wake up with my heart pounding, sweating, and Im crying. I have been diagnosed with GAD, MDD although another psych says im Bipolar. But I do believe I have PTSD. It goes back further to my child hood where I was physically and emotionally abused, moving around constantly and having to take of my little sister when my mom was drunk. I feel like my whole life has been crappy. I dont know what to do anymore. I see a psych and a therapist but things seem to be getting worse. I lost my home, my job, and now Im losing my mind.
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