My real name is Laura also
It sounds like your at the beginning of a healing journey. I don't pretend to know anything about cutting, I only know what others have told me. I understand that it's a symbolic way of letting the pain out. If this is true for you then I want you to know that the only true way to get through this is to allow yourself to feel the pain. I know that's frightening but its worth it. I've been healing for a long time now and have felt much pain but also have felt the rewards of it. There is a lot of deep inner wisdom to be gained from your experiences and a whole new awakening to be found.
You've taken the first step by looking for places and people to talk to. Don't stop here...look for all the resources you can find.
I understand your feelings about psych wards...for different reasons...my feeling is that its a safe place to be if your not safe with yourself but not a great place for support and feedback. I found that psyciatrists are too text book oriented so I ended up looking in the yellow pages under couselling and just called each one to see if there was anyone that was interested in taking on a challenging case of ptsd.....that worked for me and I got someone that was truely interested in the humanity side of it and not reading out of a book.
It sounds like you have some support around you but maybe you can ask them to just be there for you when you need to talk and not to look for a cure. Your the only one that really knows what you need and your the only one that knows the cure...if you dig into your emotions you'll know what I mean. Take charge of your healing .....your the boss and no one else. Do whatever you feel you have to do to get through this and don't worry about anyone else...some may tug with you on this but don't let them...they will respect you for it in the long run.
I wish that I could help you more with the cutting ...but I can't......I do have a suggestion though....please try it even though it may be hard to get yourself to do it....find a picture of yourself when you were a little girl and put it by a mirror...the next time you think about cutting yourself go to the picture and the mirror...look at her and yourself in the mirror and realise that you are not only cutting yourself but also that little girl that needs to be heard.