Re: PTSD can possibly ruin new relationship
Thanks for replying! Other's have told me to try earplugs though for some reason that idea doesn't sit right with me (kind of like avoidance)... The rainforest (relaxing) CD idea does sound good so I may give that a try...
This was a very serious and traumatic accident and by medical reasons I was not supposed to survive it. I had 300 stitches in my scalp, lost my teeth, my chin, and other parts and yet I never became unconscious (wish I had).
I had over 15 operations to put me back together again, yeah, Humpty Dumpty! I know I am damaged and have been in therapy for years and years. I even had a psychologist walk with me down a busy street but that didn't help me when I saw and heard the cars. Yet I am able to drive which amazes many people after what happened to me (I think because I'm in control). I just refuse to become an agoraphobic after what happened though I was agoraphobic for many years until I got angry at myself for not living life.
I don't know what my real fear is.. Will another car hit me in my legs again? I don't know.. What does help is having my boyfriends arms around me as then I feel comforted.
I hate having PTSD I really do... I spoke with many psychiatrists, psychologists, even attended a 3 month group therapy class that was based on dealing with phobia's, panic attacks, etc. and that didn't help. I was told I needed medication and I am on a low dose antidepressant that I wish I didn't have to take but it does help a bit.
I'm going to try to fight this with all my inner strength (though menopause does not help either, geez, what timing!), LOL! I think this guy is worth it and I think the more I expose myself to this scary environment the more I may get used to it... So time will tell...