Originally Posted by cetiya
murdered my soul but the body is still alive.
I so relate to this as a child sexual abuse victim, although I did get married, to my next abuser, and had a.beautiful child. I am back with my parents and have been since I was pregnant and probably always will be. It is the only place in this world that I feel safe. I sought help as a teenager for the abuse and was instead put on meds and they wondered why my depression got worse.... cause it was trauma induced, I needed to talk about it! I then was given "shock" treatment without my consent at the age of 21 and have never been the same. That abuse is even more damaging to me than the other, it was done by people who were supposed to help me, and they intentionally caused brain damage to shut me up, all in the name of helping me. I am angry, and I am terrified of everything in this world. If it weren't for my son, I would have given up, but I have to protect him and make sure nothing like this ever happens to him. I want him to have a chance at a real life. Keep fighting, and please know that there are some of out here that relate, and are learning to be true to ourselves and not be quiet anymore because it makes others uncomfortable. My feelings are valid and I don't deserve to have to hide who I really am, I have value gosh darnit!