Sunka

Hi, I read your post and would like to comment. I can't remember all your questions, but a few stick in my mind.
First of all, you should always be aware of your diagnosis. It's better to know what's going on, rather than sitting around wondering what's wrong with you...or having someone ask what's wrong with you and you don't have an answer. But having a diagnosis isn't a handy excuse for bad behavior; no matter what, you should strive to be the best person you can be whether it's in a relationship or at work or at home vegging on the couch. If your manager or Human Resources is concerned with your behavior then you should let them know what's going on because then they can steer you to sources to help you. Remember, they can't ask the specifics of a disability ((that's the law)) but you can let them know in a general way that there is a problem. About consulting a doctor, the first consult visit is supposed to be confidential, and any following treatment is confidential too. They can't discuss the specifics about your case until you sign a release form saying they can discuss your condition with someone. Personally, in my opinion, the only people you should allow to talk to your doctor is your family or some social service that's helping you. I would not allow your workplace to talk to your doctor, that's a little too intrusive and it will not help your paranoia to think people are discussing you behind your back. And, finally, having any kind of diagnosis can cause personal upset - that's a normal reaction. Just set yourself up for success by finding a good doctor ((sometimes that takes time)) and trusting that the doctor can help you. Just remember that you're not alone, there are hundreds of thousands of people who have some form of this illness. You can't be CURED but you can be TREATED successfully and go on to live a good life. You did a good thing by coming to these message boards because that's a way to connect with others who won't judge you and who can understand what's going on with you. Remember to be patient when you're looking for a reply, sometimes it takes time for people to respond. Well, that's all I have to say for right now. I hope I was able to help a little. Try to have a good day, OK??? (((huggs)))