post partum depression????? - Postpartum Depression (PPD) Message Board

bellestar · 10-28-2003, 12:30 PM

Hello to all! I am a new mother. My daughter is a2 1/2 months old and is just a joy! I love every minute I have with her. Unfortunately, I had to return to work on the 20th and it is very hard for me. She is in a daycare and I have been happy with them but I am wondering if maybe I have post partum depression. I have her picture as my wallpaper on my computer and it is hard for me to actually get any work done b/c I just want to sit and stare at her picture all day. I am very weepy and miss being pregnant EXTREMELY!!! I feel my tummy every now and then and am bummed that she is no longer in there and that I can not feeling her move all day long. I loved that so much and miss her so much. I would do anything to be able to stay home with her but my DH and I just can not afford me to not work right now. We are working on that so hopefully before to long I will be able to stay home but right now it is killing me. I just abolutely miss her during the day and miss being pregnant and I am sooooo looking forward to getting pg again! We are going to wait at least a year but I am already starting to count the days and my little angel just got here! I don't want this to effect my time with her and when I am with her I am extremly happy but miss being pg sooo much. Am I normal or should I call my Dr.? Thank you so much and I know this is long.

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Bellestar
Just had a baby girl on 8/12/2003.
She is the most precious gift I will ever receive!

Kimianne · 10-28-2003, 01:29 PM

Hi:

Congratulations on your baby girl

It sounds like a seperation issue to me.

The same thing happened to me when I had my little boy 3 years ago. Being a single mom there was really no way I could not work.

I did change jobs so that I could be closer to him with not so much commute time. But when my baby was 7-1/2 weeks old I had to start me new job.

After dropping him off at the sitters I would cry EVERY morning, think about him ALL day and then rush to get him EVERY night.

It was horrible. Although I still miss him terribly throughout the day and can't wait to see him, it is better. It takes a long time to adjust to not having them constantly.

Keep your chin up.

Keep us posted.

God bless you and your little one.

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Kimi
Life is a gift. Your loved ones are the benefits.
Respect them both and you will reap the rewards.

momof3mjt · 10-28-2003, 01:53 PM

Have you thought about doing daycare in your home? When my dd was little, I worked for about 1 yr, then I decided that I needed to be home with her. I started up my own daycare, worked the hours I chose, and made enough money for me to stay home. I loved it!

good luck!
Lindy

bellestar · 10-28-2003, 02:56 PM

Thank you guys so much for your words of encouragement! I have thought about in home daycare and I would like to do it but don't even know where to begin and I am not sure that with just me, I would be able to make the $ I need to. Thank you!

rrsmom · 10-28-2003, 03:29 PM

Maybe you could work at your baby's daycare if a position ever came available. Maybe you'd be able to make enough money and also get a big discount on your baby's daycare. Then you'd be able to see her all the time! Just a thought...
Hang in there... I think your feelings are completely normal. You only had her 2 1/2 months ago, so your hormones are still way out of whack too (In my opinion it takes quite awhile for them to get to normal!) I think it will get easier with time...
Good luck!