I have a long history of depression and last year was diagonosed with mild bipolar and have terrible panic attacks at times, to cut a long story short im 6 weeks postnatal and have a gorgeous baby girl who has been a very difficult baby won't settle after feeds and crying a lot. On friday i had a complete break down after feeling it build up for two weeks. Im scared when the baby wakes up in case she screams for hours im so terrifieid of being on my own with her why ??? I have two teenagers so its not like i have not got any experience with babies. On friday i was taken to A ane E in severe distress had not slept for four nights and can't seem to shut off from baby even when my boyfriend takes over, i have overwelming feelings of dread and depression but i do love my baby i feel so stressed out and keep crying and doing too much housework and i can't stop cleaning. Any how ive been put on zopiclone and lorazepam till i can be assessed properly and the home team have been visiting me every day i feel such a failure and a waste of space to feel like this after having a healthy baby
the panic attacks are so so bad and im not eating and losing a lot of weight too, does anyone think its post natal depression ?????