Blood pressure issues, again.
For the majority of my pregnancy, I have had preeclampsia. I'm 35 weeks, and have been going to the dr weekly for over a month now so they can keep an eye on it. Well last week, my b.p. was 118/78, which isn't too bad, then yesterday, the top number was at 148, which really concerned my dr because it went up that much in 7 days. So she did blood work, upped my b.p. medication dosage, and sent me for a non-stress test, and my baby responded very well to that. She thinks that in another 1-2 weeks I will need to be induced, unless I go into labor on my own by then, since as of yesterday I was almost 4cm's and 50% effaced, -1 station...and am having the beginning signs of back labor. Anyway, I'm starting to get very worried about my baby. I know that high b.p. can put a lot of stress of him, so therefore it would seem best that he comes in a week or two. But then again, I feel that if he comes at 36 or 37 weeks, that that's too early. So I am basically putting myself through a ton of worry and stress because I don't know what is best. My dr is very trustworthy, and I know that if she says we have to do it now, than that is the best. But I just can't seem to shake this whole feeling that he would be coming too early and it would be all my fault because of this b.p. Am I being totally insane for thinking this way? Is it just all my whacked out hormones?