My name is Jenni. Im 21 years old, and I'd like to consider myself to be at least somewhat intelligent. I've found myself becoming a little more concerned as days pass. My "situation" started around the time I recieved my "period" last month. My History of menstrul cycle is as follows. From the time I started my mother and I used to joke as to how regular I am. "You could start a clock by Jennis period". Ive ALWAYS been every 28 days, 5 day period. HEAVY cramps.. you know, the "rolling on the floor crying" kind. Starting in late April of this year continued through beginning/mid July, my ex boyfriend (fiance at the time) and I, were having completely unprotected sex. We werent TRYING to concieve. We just werent really concerned. Everything continued as normal, until around July 11th. I had a dream that someone handed me a baby boy and my immediate thought was "wow, I dont remember even being pregnant." The dream concerned me to a minor extent because I've always had a really amazing intuition. July 12th, around 3pm, I started my "period". It was 2 days early. And unlike my "normal" period, I cramped TWICE. Literally.. Once for about a minute, and the other time for about 5 minutes. And nothing like normal cramps. (my period has ALWAYS started in the middle of the night when Im sleeping. Crazy I know, but its just how its always been. And im usually awakended by HORRIBLE cramps, finding that I started my period) This "period" lasted for 3 days, and was a different color (more pink than the almost black HEAVY flow that Im accoustomed to) It didnt get heavier through the mensus, nor lighter when it ended, it just stopped. I used tampons during this time because I figured period = no pregnancy. I didnt fill ONE tampon each use. Normally I need to change at least 5 times in one day. I found this odd, but convinced myself this was just a light period. I took two pregnancy tests during this bleeding, both negative. Starting almost immediatly after this ended... I noticed that everytime I stood up, I was dizzy. My lower stomach started having weird knocking feelings near my pelvic area. Sometimes just a quick shooting feeling from aforementioned area up to my bellybutton. My lower back felt sore for a few days.. and I noticed that I would make a meal, and then realize I wasnt really even hungry. For about two weeks, I was convinced that I had become pregnant. Eventually it just dissapated and I realized I had just been overly paranoid. I continued on with my daily activities..noticing little feelings every now and then.. but nothing like the first 2 weeks. I figured "I'll wait until my next period to see whats going on". That leads me to now.. I was two days late, and low and behold, here she came. But for some reason, it hasnt satisfied me. It has actually made my suspicion a little worse. My period lasted two days. And this time, a pale lighter pink. An even lighter flow than last month. And a day shorter. I stopped bleeding sometime between day one and the second day for at least 12 hours. I had intercourse and started bleeding again..for maybe 4 hours..but not enough to fill a pad. But throughout day two to the wee hours of the morning, there was only brown (old) blood, when I wiped.. nothing on the panties. I spoke with a couple of my friends about this, and they adviced that they had both known plenty of girls who got their "periods" while pregnant. I know the best thing to do, and the safest thing to do, is to take another HPT, but a part of me is honestly afraid to.
other minor things Ive noticed.. Visible veins in my breasts (running through my nipple) that were never there.. I have developed spider viens in my legs (im only 21!!! Ive never HAD ANY OF THESE AND ITS GROSSING ME OUT! heh) and this month before my "period" started... my breasts hurt a little bit. (Ive never had sore breasts, even before/during periods) My breasts also feel like they're heavier. But its weird.. like..closer to the top of my breasts... like they're being weighed down sort of. I had lost 4 lbs during the first part of my freaking out.. but lately Ive noticed Ive had to wear my belt on one notch looser, or it feels like its digging into my stomach.
I feel somewhat obsessive considering "the first sign of pregnancy is a missed period" and even though I've actually had two periods.. Im still worried. I suppose my friends, made it worse, by telling me, that some women have periods in the first trimester and even throughout pregnancy. Ive noticed a MUCH heavier cervical mucus that initiated me to get to a clinic to get free STD testing because I was worried I contracted something. Tests showed negative. So, now Im just thinking "well maybe its just a bacterial infection"... My eyes have been welling up with tears over the SILLIEST things.. like commercials on TV. Ive been hit with this enlightening feeling about getting my life and career on the right track.. (but sometimes it happens because I am cursed with chronic depression/mania)
I know even if someone replys to this, The best answer I could get is "get a pregnancy test" ..Im aware of this. I just felt the need to vent. Im too nervous to speak with anyone in detail, because I dont want the whole circle to find out that I couldve possibly gotten "knocked up" .. nor do I really want anyone to know how truley nervous I am, about believing its possible.
I downloaded a free ovulation calendar to check to see if by chance I had been ovulating during unprotected intercourse, and of course .. I was.
Anyway..Im sure that was too long .. heh.. But I feel somewhat better having said all of these things. If you've actually read this and feel the need to reply.. please do so.
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