New here, still SHOCKED by positive test...
I guess I'll just give a quick rundown. Been married for 13 yrs...tried fertility drugs for 1st 2 yrs of marriage....adopted two babies way back..they are now 10 and 6. Thought we were all done. Always told "no way you'll ever conceive blah blah blah" by MANY dr's. Even told 3 wks ago "it'll never happen so don't worry about it" when I was in to check my thyroid at my PCP office....Make a long story short...I'm 5 wks pregnant...Had blood tests, ultrasound etc....it's normal, but very early yet.
I still can't get over the shock that I'm actually really pregnant! We couldn't be happier......or more surprised! I had an ovarian cyst removed in the end of May, and apparently, it happened shortly there after. I have NEVER had normal or regular periods, ever. I guess I must've been ovulating (and never knew it) right after the surgery sometime. The cyst was not there 13 yrs ago because I had had ultrasounds and every other imaginable test when trying fertility treatments. But all of a sudden, something worked!!!
I'm still reeling from the shock. I'm on my prenatal vitamins, eating well, resting and walking daily. My age concerns me. I'm 38 now and will be 39 before the baby's born. I have always been a smoker. Have cut down tremendously in the last few weeks. It is so hard to quit! I know I have to. I try to imagine that I'm blowing smoke at the baby when I do, and I feel guilty and put out the cigarette. My cousin said to imagine how black and disgusting the placenta will become and realize that I made my baby live in that yucky-smoke/chemical infested thing for 9 mos. That did paint a different picture for me. I would hate to think I did that. I'm hoping that will work. It's just so hard for me to actually believe that I'm pregnant. Maybe the reality hasn't set in yet, I don't know. Maybe at my next appt (which will be 9 wks) the ultrasound will look more 'baby-like' and it will hit me. I don't know. Is it because I don't "feel" pregnant?
Any advice or suggestions would be greatly appreciated. Thanks for letting me ramble on.
Last edited by mmmcoffee; 07-10-2008 at 02:09 PM.