Hi everyone. Well, my insomnia went away for one night at least. I got about 6 straight hours of sleep!
Anyway, I am still fearing that I am going to miscarry. For those of you who didn't see my post about that, I miscarried last year in June and we didn't know that the baby had died. I actually never miscarried. I waited and waited but it wouldn't come out. Anyway, I eventually had a D&C about a month later. But the whole time I had pregnancy symptoms, even when the fetus was dead. So now I am worried again. My point to this was to ask if anyone goes through days where they don't feel pregnant. My breasts are still enlarged and I am still moody, but other than that, and the insomnia which dissappeared last night, I don't feel pregnant. I will be 10 weeks on Saturday. I have an appointment next Thursday, so we'll see if it's ok. I had a viability ultrasound at 7W 6D and the heart was beating. I don't know why I feel like this, but I can't stop worrying. I guess it goes with being pregnant. I will stop worrying about miscarriage if I make it to the next trimester, but then I'm sure I'll find something else to worry about. I guess I am more venting than anything, but I would really love it if someone could tell me that they too have days when they don't feel pregnant. Thanks everyone.
I'm sorry to hear about how you're feeling. I know it's no way to live. As I mentioned before, I've had 3 previous miscarriages (one also that died with the pregnancy continuing until a very sad ultrasound). I am currently in my 18th week now and I find something new to worry about every day. Every single day. I told myself I'd stop worrying when the first trimester was over, but even now at 18 weeks it's always something new. Usually pertaining to the baby not moving enough or not moving at all. I saw him on ultrasound the other day and he looked great. He was waving and dancing and curling his fingers and toes and he was absolutely beautiful to me. You'd think that would have helped, but it only increased my fears that I would lose a child I now have so much love for. Deep inside somewhere I think I know this baby is going to be born this summer and I'm sure I'll have a whole new set of worries then, but for now I sure would like to relax and enjoy this pregnancy. Our worry and stress can't be good for our growing little ones. But we're mothers and we have hearts and minds and souls and we fear the worst. I'm sorry I don't have a perfect solution for you Molly, but know that you're not alone and your fears are totally normal. Again, all we can do is look back, smile and sigh months from now when we're emailing each other pictures of our gorgeous newborns. Best of luck to you and please keep venting as needed. <IMG SRC="http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/smile.gif">
...and so you can see JUST how petty I can be, today's worry is (drumroll please) -
I'm not hungry. I've been eating ravenously for weeks now and today I'm just not hungry. So I wonder if I'm still pregnant. Silly, eh. <IMG SRC="http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/smile.gif">
Oh, and my ankles look like little hams. Very swollen. So I feel gross too.