Thats what you are all to me-you are like my family away from home, Lovely me how did you cope with your dh and the affair, do you still think about it? And as for everyone else-i know that some point in our lives we all go through hard times-some befor others and some not as bad as others but they are still memories that cant be put away for quite some time-i have come to know all of you as friends and family, as the people the god have been by my side even for such a short time-you have all touched my heart and been like little angels talking to me-god made all of you for a reason and he does what he does to us for a reason-strength, happiness, sadness...i dont know how anyone could get throught it without people like you by my side. These past couple of days i have done something that i havent done for 4 years-i wrote a small story i guess you could call it???-something that i stopped doing because of a previous relationship:this is from me to all of you:
An Answer to gods prayers
God has put us on this earth to take care of the ones that we love and to love the ones that we take care of. He gave us the gift of life and then granted us with the gift of death. Now some people wonder how god could go on and grant us with the gift of death after giving us the gift of life, but only few peolpe have come to realize the answer to taht question. It is not because he wanted to make up for our differances or take away a specail part of us even take it away if he thought that he could make us perfect, but to tell us that he wants us to be differant and that he creates us differant for a reason. We were created this way to bring life into this world, to make life, and to give love. If you think about the hard times each realtionship has come through you only think about what might happen but i am looking at it this way-Not only did god create the lives in this world but he made them specail in a way that takes a lifetime to learn-he created a women to bring life-a man to love a women to complete that life. And that today is our anwser to gods prayers-we were all created for a reason rather it be life or love-so if you look at yourself and wonder why god does what he does you need to take one more step back and think about this-in gods eyes were all perfect and he made us for a reason, now our adventure through life is to find out what our perfect reason for living is. Gods little ones that are brought into this world to early and then taken without even actually seeing the world are his little angels up stairs-they are our creations-
you are all one of gods creations and he grants us with differant asspects that take affect at differant times but when our little angels are ready to be sent from heaven we will know and that is why god grants us with the gift to love-to make it and follow it through life on its little adventure
I love you guys-if this doesnt make sence i am sorry, but i do hope that you all see what i am saying
As for the affair(s) it took me by storm. I was rocked! To say the least I was just absolutely mortified! I could not understand why someone would do this to ME. I am good and loving and nurturing. We (the other woman and I) actually got together and went to "their" apartment together. When she opened the door and he saw BOTH of us together ready to rip him apart he was the one MORTIFIED. HA. So looking back at Christmas video of 2001 and so on you know pictures of things together during a time I was oblivious to him cheating and now knowing that in those picutres and videos he was deceiving me and our daughters.....kills me. It does get easier hun and I am living proof of how strong you end up becoming. I did not take him back at first. I made him sulk and wait and be alone living in his car to think about his stupidity. Then his mother took his a$$ in (condoner). Well love prevailed, but not before we have dooked it out, fought it out, yelled it out, cried it out, and he did things that made him realize he was foolish. A close and first time death just hit him hard and also woke him up like a bolt of lightning. Can I also add...alot of prayer. I still know I don't even pray enough as I should and so I need to make more of an effort to keep God knowing that I DO appreciate his love and mercy. These husbands should be so thankful that we had mercy on them as well.
Baby's Arrival Expected August 2, 2003
Spoiled--You have a special gift you know. You have the ability to reach so many of us, yet at a time when you, yourself, are grieving. You are unique, in that you can look at things from the outside-in, as well as the inside-out. It takes a very strong person to do that. Believe in your convictions as I know you do and you will succeed w/all you do.
Thanks for being our strength, our wisdom, our friend. Thanks for opening your heart and sharing with us. I thought it was beautiful.
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Your words made me cry...you are so right about the gift of love. I also believe we were put on this earth to take care of the ones we love. But I believe, too, that we must care for the ones we DON'T love. That is the hardest test and the one that proves our worth as human beings.
The empathy you have shown in your message is truly commendable, which just goes to prove that love has nothing to do with distance, only with being a part of the human experience and knowing that we're all in this together. If we don't help each other out, who will? It's up to all of us to put aside our differences and work together so this world can eventually becaome a safe, happy place to live in where everyone can have that most basic of human rights which is LOVE!
I'm praying for you to recover from your loss, and to go on with renewed strength. Take care, Cassie <IMG SRC="http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/heart.gif">
S/fun: I'm brand new to this board and just read your post. Thank you so much for your prayerful story. I had my m/c last summer and I felt so alone. My DH shutdown as he often does, he even played softball the day it happened. I love him dearly, but needed his arms around me. It took ALOT of time to heal. It is such a comfort to be here with women like me. Your reminder of God's angels touched my heart so deeply. Sometimes when I'm sitting in traffic and look at all the cars around me, I think they all had a mother. Why can't I be a mother. Why why why??? Its a dear woman like you who took the time to remind us ttc of God's wonderful plan for each of us. Thank you, I'm glad I have time on my hands today to read about my sisters-ttc. Have a wonderful day.
And Lovelyme, what a mountain to climb. I've experienced unfaithfulness but it wasn't in marriage. Its like someone rips your heart out and stomps on it. You are so blessed because of your forgiveness. I wish you, your DH and your growing bundle of joy all the very best. God Bless <IMG SRC="http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/smile.gif">