| having a good couple of days
Ive complained in the past here about having some bad depression during this pregnancy,and it has continued. It seems as if I will have a couple of good days, and then a couple of bad days. No outside factors are affecting my moods. It is like one day I will simply wake up tearful, irritated, guilt-ridden, and not wanting to do anything at all. I will literally cry all day. Then I will wake up the next day back to my old self. It is so wierd. It is like pms with a vengeance! Right now I feel like me. I dread the days when I dont. I didnt have this with my first pregnancy, but I have always suffered from pms. The worst part is that on my bad days, I hate to face anyone, including my family. If im home, I want to hole up all day in my room. If I am at work, I have this extreme aversion to making calls, facing the public. I will put things off until I can handle them, which sometimes leaves me playing catch-up. Im usually friendly, cheerful, and very productive. It kills me when I dont get anything done due to this, but its like I cant move. My strategy at the moment for dealing with this is to take advantage of the good days, and not anticipate the bad ones. But it kills me that I cant control it.
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